The Price of Happiness

I still ‘enjoy’ the fall­out that came with this month all messed up. (March 2015 — I’ll remem­ber you for­ev­er. I will prob­a­bly devel­op a fobia for the month of March now.) First, my sched­ule was wrecked by things well out­side my con­trol. I lost valu­able time to do research to write good blog posts for the chal­lenge, because after one thing was shift­ed to lat­er dates, all oth­ers had to be moved as well, and there are pri­or­i­ties, like edit­ing my book. So no April A-Z for me. Talk about plan­ning a cou­ple of months ahead. Ha! Still fucked up!

That’s two failed A-Z chal­lenges in a row. 

Tho I still want to do A-Z next year. I’m an idiot.

My oth­er wor­ry were my beta read­ers. I bare­ly made it on sched­ule with them as well, so revi­sions are a pri­or­i­ty dur­ing the time I could have writ­ten a cou­ple more blog posts. Again, things well out­side my con­trol, with stuff planned since for­ev­er. Fuck this shit.

Now, if all this wasn’t enough, my care­ful­ly built cou­pled-atmos­phere-ocean mod­el — I’ve been work­ing on it for a year or so — crash­es my com­put­er. I’m out of com­put­ing resources and I can’t tweak it any fur­ther. Even if I’d run it in parts. I hit a wall with my plan­et design here, so I’ll have to impro­vise from what I’ve learned in the process so far. Basi­cal­ly, back to pen­cils and spread­sheets. I love spread­sheets, but I love MATLAB even more. Yet I have no pret­ty data to feed the scripts. *Weeps blood*

Hey, I still have my new bike! It was a gift for my birth­day this Feb­ru­ary.

(I have an urge to sell it for more PC parts to get my old machine up and run­ning again.)

The good thing (which some­how out­weighs all the bad stuff) is that I’m halfway through the first chap­ter of Rjg. Looks like it will be an excit­ing adven­ture to write. I’m cur­rent­ly read­ing a cou­ple of books to keep my mind going. I came across them acci­den­tal­ly, while doing some research for my story’s cop­per mines. Those two books are The Sub­stance of Civ­i­liza­tion: Mate­ri­als and Human His­to­ry from the Stone Age to the Age of Sil­i­con by Stephen L. Sass and Traces Of The Past: Unrav­el­ing The Secrets Of Archae­ol­o­gy Through Chem­istry by Joseph B. Lam­bert. If there’s some­thing about ancient tech­nolo­gies and mate­ri­als sci­ence, it’s where you should go look for the answers. Pret­ty good reads. (Ok, I’m biased here, since I found some­thing that pleas­es my reader’s eye. That hap­pens very rarely.)

Oh well, back to work. The last of revi­sions and some heavy writ­ing after­wards.

Jeno Marz
JENO MARZ is a science fiction writer from Latvia, Northern Europe, with background in electronics engineering and computer science. She is the author of two serial novels, Falaha’s Journey: A Spacegirl’s Account in Three Movements and Falaha’s Journey into Pleasure. Marz is current at work on a new SF trilogy. All her fiction is aimed at an adult audience.


  1. Sor­ry you won’t be in on A-Z, and that sucks about the com­put­er! I have lost all of my orig­i­nal date for a project 3 TIMES before, so feel your pain.

    1. I usu­al­ly do back­ups, even if I change a word in my projects. But this issue is much worse. I can’t run my mod­el at all now. I don’t have the suit­able hard­ware to car­ry the load of all the com­pu­ta­tions. Also, the data amounts on the out­puts would be much big­ger than I antic­i­pat­ed. I don’t have the hard dri­ve space to house it all. Unless I buy me a new PC with all the pow­er­ful innards… and I’m not exact­ly swim­ming in mon­ey piles here.

      This month I will release the posts I wrote for the chal­lenge. So there will be some­thing to read here. The thing is, I have to start think­ing what I will do the next year for the chal­lenge. I have to start writ­ing NOW to make sure noth­ing screws that up. It’s so hard for me to come up with themes. Writ­ing fic­tion is eas­i­er. :o)

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